FET

Well...everything went as planned for our FET (frozen embryo transfer) and smoothly. The doctors were proud of how well our little embryo thawed and how my body responded to the different meds. It's crazy to actually watch the process take place and I was so happy that Josh got to experience it with me as well. 

Then comes the two week wait. And the tons of meds that you have to take. Estrogen pills, patches and progesterone inserts (yuck). Multiple times a day. Of course, the side effects are the same as pregnancy symptoms. Fun, fun. 

I went in for my blood test (my beta hcg) which determines whether the pregnancy took. Of course I got the call back at the end of the school day while I teaching. My heart broke the minute I heard the nurse's voice. It didn't take. As much as I said I would hold it together and not cry, I couldn't help it. I just sat in my little closet at school and bawled. I called Josh and then cried some more. This part of the process sure stinks. I'm trying hard to find a silver lining but it's tough. So anyway...I continue to ask for prayers as Josh and I pray over our choices of what to do next. 

  This verse that I have in my dining room is just screaming my name right now, and I'm trying to take it to heart. 

  

 "They do not fear bad news. They confidently trust the Lord to care for them." Psalm 112:7